Last week the summer rains was the show screening, the sun and the clouds playing hide & seek, at the peak was the Sunday. It was hot, really hot just some time back when I’d gone up to put the clothes to dry in the afternoon but the clouds and winds had come into full effect to show what it can do. I went up to see the play, witness the storm coming in I thought. As I stood at the edge, looking around at the wind raging, the thunder calling, it seemed to resonate with what was going on in my mind and my heart..
I looked straight up and felt that I was at the centre of it, the pain I had no control over to stop because I know it’s not my fault but I’m there anyway, feeling everything and nothing at the same time. Something pulled me out of this though, a bark and a laughter. I looked over to my left to see two kids kicking the ball and the dog chasing after it on their terrace, not paying any attention to the coming storm.. I realised I wanted that carefree laughter echoing around me.
Then I looked a little up ahead to see my neighbours, lying out on their terrace just as casually looking at the sky too. I couldn’t look away. I didn’t want to look away. I saw their daughter playing right there and I realised I wanted that in my life. I know there’ll be struggles but it’s who you choose to struggle with, who at the end of the day, you want to come home to. Who doesn’t make it chore, even if it’s a chore. I didn’t realise until then, as the wind howled that I was crying..This is all I’ve always craved, you see? The intimacy and the bond, not much other wise.
I did look away to see what had caught their attention or caught mine rather
I saw the sun rays getting brighter even as the wind raged on.
I smiled, through the tears streaming.
Just like everything else.
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