Yellow, Wise & Neowise

As I wait, impatiently at first, for the comet that I possibly can’t see from my terrace and while this sinks in, the hope that I could still spot it dispels.

I start looking around and slowly the other things around me seep into my consciousness. Looking up at the stars,(they look so beautiful tonight), suddenly bring out memories that I’d long buried.
The dreams of a naive young girl.

I settled down in my favourite spot( near the water tank as high as I could reach :p), which was ignored all this while by the hustle & bustle of the life that took over,  the aroma from a kitchen wafting up towards me on a surprisingly hot night, distant sounds of a television in someone’s house, a dog or two barking, fading conversations, a whoosh of a car and then the inevitable honk, two people walking on their balcony only to realise a few seconds later that the other one is a shadow and a startling realisation that everything’s changed and at the same time nothing really has followed by a hard acceptance of truth that you are alone, probably a little lonely and that this is a way of life.

Although the uncertainty of what’s next hits me; just like the last time I sat here and had similar thoughts, I realised that if life has taught us anything in the last few months and years is that the foremost human instinct is to survive and thrive. The suffering of many, the magnitude is difficult to comprehend and yet we’d do anything to keep up the strive to fight and not go gentle into the night.

There’s hope.
There always is.

I sit here, still occasionally looking towards the horizon, there’s always a light to guide us back home, to melt that stone heart a little  which always seems to take the beating quite hard. Finding a reason to smile, in gratitude to all those fighting to ensure we are as safe as possible or the tune of your favourite song  or receiving a simple ‘Hello’ from someone whom you truly care about.

Also Coldplay, you always make the best music, are especially apt for these sombre nights; ‘Look at the stars, they shine for you’ and they do.